reached home, opened my mailbox and was greeted with 2 envelopes. 1 small and 1 A4 size. My heart skipped a beat.
The A4 size, I am expecting except wouldn't think it'd be this soon.
So, I chose. Small envelope it shall be.
I am quite a pessimist, so I chose what I thought it was going to be.
And, Bull's eye.
Disappointment smacked right into my face.
A job application to a government body located within the vicinity of my current organization turned out unsuccessful.
Why would they send me a letter if I passed the 1st selection round, i.e. interview?
Not even an interview was granted. Outright rejection.
Mode of application: Mail in the standard application form downloaded from their website, peppered with educational certs, testimonials, bla bla bla.
Its not like I have to impress them with some swanky cover letter and resume. Damn.
I am seriously dissappointed. I am hoping for an interview, the least.
People are leaving, i.e. my counterparts holding the current position as I am.
And they leave by the hordes, mind you. Another leaving next month.
Before this place turns into a full blown autonomous (read: more crappy and even messier than it already is, with zilch monetary recognition) organization, I really hope to leave. But,
rezeki is not on my side as yet.
It's mentally exhausting and extremely demoralizing to not getting any response out of the hundreds of applications that have been sent in.
The few that responded all reads the same: Unsuccessful.
Was granted only 1 interview but that turned out also, u guessed it, unsuccessful.
I feel sick to the stomach.
Did not even bother to open the A4 envelope till I reached home.
All the way up the lift, then the stairs, what I felt was just extreme disappointment.
At this point, remembered an advise by an ustaz
: Bila pekerjaan kamu sampai ke tahap yg begitu menduga kesabaran iaitu cubaan bagi kamu, itu bermakna kerja kamu sampai ke tahap ibadah. Kerana Pekerjaan itu adalah ibadah.
Opened up the A4 envelope.
Happiness seeps in slowly but surely. It is the appointment date for the agreement for lease and the keys collection for my home!
Yippee!! It all seems surreal…cannot believe it.
But of cos we cant make it for the scheduled appointment date as mb has not returned yet. Would have to call them tomorrow to reschedule the date of appointment.
Anyways, Im happy now..Very happy that we will soon have a place we can call our very own..Insya Allah..
Lost-1 Gain-1
That's Life
And I'm only human to feel the many emotions bestowed upon us..
Syukur Alhamdulillah...
-- tea's thoughts --
8:53 PM
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